In an exclusive sneak peek at Saturday’s Oprah: Where are They Now?, the transgender trailblazer (also son to Cher and the late Sonny Bono) opens up about a major internal struggle that prevented him from being his best, and most healthy, self.
“I would have never been able to do it before [transitioning],” Bono, 45, tells Oprah Winfrey. “I was too disconnected from my body, and the dysphoria that I had with my body was too much to be able to have cared enough to anything like that.”
Bono adds his body dysphoria made it hard for him to treat his body well.
The Dancing with the Stars alum has been steadily losing weight over the past few years after making a public mission to drop at least 50 lbs. in 2012. In fact, he’s done even better, dropping an impressive 75 lbs.
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Before sitting down with Winfrey, 62, for the interview, Bono looked at old photos with one of the show’s producers. Unlike previous guests, however, this trip down memory lane wasn’t all that fun.
“For most transgender people, we don’t really like to see pictures of us before transitioning because life was really hard beforehand,” he explains. “They’re generally not happy memories.”
Bono, who transitioned from a woman to a man in 2009, explains to Winfrey that those pictures remind him of a time when he was unhappy because he wasn’t really being himself.
“It doesn’t, you know, bring back fun nostalgia. You just are reminded of the pain you were,” the actor says.
Oprah: Where Are They Now? airs Saturdays (10 p.m. ET) on OWN.